left behind

the was a time when i felt down... hmn it was all about someone... well don't get me wrong, one can says i'm the forever alone or bff type hahaha ok whateverlah, this thing doesn't matter. anyone who know me, know me better, penyakit nak kahwin ni sudah lama ada hehe so it isn't new at all :)

but recently, hmn well sometimes i'm serious, sometimes i'm not, but most of the time, my seriousness is doubt-able, cause i don't really show it...

bila orang tanya, ada dah calon? ada tapi belum ditemui hehe, but seriously... i do not meet them yet hehehe, i know one or two, theree erkk four? cukup dah ni hehe. memang kahwin 4 juga lah kau shahrizal hehe. but i would like to stay one hmn..

if possible, like i said before i know my limit hmn, not that kinda of limit, i mean in term of giving affection, i just don't think i would be able to share that...

usually the targets is in facebook, hmn hehe, and don't get me wrong again, i don't flirt on someone, and i don't just chat with someone, and i don't really believe everything in fb or the internet...

and my curiosity was answered back then about someone, on one part you may think that this person was someone who she were, but then if you really explore you could actually find something beneath the person that not many know, don't be fool with appearance and status updates hehe adei. whateverlah.

i'm too not that perfect, i do think i'm not good at all, hmn that is why i am looking, just someone... hmn toooo average hehehe but still ok hmn,, maybe i'm asking too much, well whateverlah erkkk.

jangan lupa bangun malam, solat istikharah, solat hajat, insyaAllah ditunjukkn kita kebenaran and petunjuk... dan ianya berlaku, i know did something hmn that i think i would regret but then it isn't bad... i think this is the best solution, even though it is probably the saddest ever hmn... but i think it is for the best of all... hmn never get me wrong, i never had any special relationship with anyone ok

but i do appreciated my relationship with my "friends", i always do, and remember, even if i don't, i'm not going to just say no to anyone, hmn but then it is matter of principle, oh great now you show some principle erkk....

hmn i'm confuse, maybe the current development isn't so nice, but i do hope think would get better as.... i forget about it, why do i have such a good memory when i want to forget something?? -.-"

i'm sorry.

"Di antara tanda kebaikan Islam seseorang adalah dia meninggalkan apa yang tidak berguna baginya."

(HR.At-Tirmidzi)

maybe, we had change, but our memories, will always remain. insyaAllah i'll remember ^_^ someone that appreciate me, most... :)