little did he know...

little did he know... it happens

i wonder if i were there...

hmn nah maybe, there isn't anything i can do.

but i pray for things to be better :)

i hope i won't leave anyone again ^_^

yup i meant anyone,

you can't be so sure, what you are to them :)

so treat anyone equally, ok.

i'm sorry for being insensitive...

still...

yup, the heart still shattered.

nothing much i can do, hmn...

for awhile, i keep my life busy, good thing i'm still able to focus, but then i had no idea whether or not i'm demotivational.

the funny thing happen today as if i don't really care about anything, miss class like it was nothing at all, maybe this happens nearing the end of the semester, thus probably doesn't had anything to do with it.

and yesterday2 even my family had sense something wrong happen to me... hmn, i guess i would just wear some mask like i always do, like a bipolar, acts like nothing happens at all, hahaha and laugh a lots and lots of it hahahahaha -.-" sienz...

can i cry now? hahahahahahaha T_T

well to tells the truth, i'm writing this happily, i hope no one read this hahaha cause by writing it, let my hard free, i know there is some better way, hopeful i got some strength in my qiam, pray for me ^_^

Tidakkah kita bergembira Allah telah berfirman:

(Lazimnya) perempuan-perempuan yang jahat adalah untuk lelaki-lelaki yang jahat, dan lelaki-lelaki yang jahat untuk perempuan-perempuan yang jahat dan (sebaliknya) perempuan-perempuan yang baik untuk lelaki-lelaki yang baik, dan lelaki-lelaki yang baik untuk perempuan- perempuan yang baik. Mereka (yang baik) itu adalah bersih dari (tuduhan buruk) yang dikatakan oleh orang- orang (yang jahat) mereka (yang baik) itu akan beroleh pengampunan (dari Allah) dan pengurniaan yang mulia.

maka bergembiralah ^_^, inilah motivasi terbaik untuk diri dan semua kita :).

Cerita orang tua2 ehem2

[amaran: jangan baca hehe]

hehe aku melarikan diri daripada dikahwinkan hehehehe

takde la... tak perlu lari pun, aku dah ada calon, jodoh je takde hahaha

men2 jgn ambik serious.. hehe

actually, its been a stressful life today haha,

i guess my family was too emotional, or i guess it was just me,(was that a proper grammar? haha)

i donno la, life was always been like this at home,

its probably my attachment to them i could feel something,

this is family, if we were in usrah, it were the same thing,

whenever we were attached to someone or some organization,

our feeling get mix up, the color, the sound, most importantly the emotion.

life could never be the same and lonely, err really?

i know something, i have to get married hehehe just kidding...

err whenever thing goes wrong i always wanting to get away, running away...

aahhh why it has to be like this...

this world really need political reform haha,

not la, lets go something basic, like family..

first thing first, choosing a wife hahaha

choose la, or let someone do the arrangement hehe

but remember, good start arent insurance for good end.

theres must always be a feed back by time, correction of mistake, and practice of conduct.

the problem, start because we lack of knowledge,

what kind of knowledge?

i had no idea,

i have to fill this 4th line hehe(ps i have no idea what to write here)

arhhhhhhhhhhhhakh

whenever im tension, i have tendency to do ridiculous thing in life ahhh

bek dgr lagu meher zain hehe insyaAllah gi ar blog SF

kan best klu generasi kita ni generasi yang sudah ditarbiyyah

and i dont mean our generation only, but also two generation before and after us,

everyone understand the need for Islam,

the problem rise, because theres occurrence of conflict between the generation that understand and that dint understand, i dont mean they dont understand but the level of knowledgeable are prone to start a conflict between the two generation.

but still, i dont get it, when someone had gone through the training, but still the failed? are the test is too difficult? is it mean for failing?

from the JDorama Jin, ...God give us test, so we can overcome them... this japanese people understand it(this is merely philosophical then theoretical). i think it is clearly that we should have overcome them not to fail it, but even if we failed, God knows better, maybe its better for us.

i think, i missed the important point here aduii -.-

macam dulu aku bercakap, mesti ada ja tertinggal, tgk je muka2 para sahabat hilang terus haha

mungkin sebab aku tak pernah serious, tiba2 aku nak cakap benda yang serious, mereka pula tak boleh nak percaya ini aku haha just kidding la

sapa la aku ingin menegurkan. itulah jihad dan pengorbanan bukan? melakukan sesuatu yang kita tak upaya dengan bersungguh tatkala itu kita sendiri pun tak kuat lakukan. Bagi tazkirah tegur orang, tentang perkara2 yang kita sendiri terkapai-kapai untuk menanggungnya... surah as saff:3

berat2 ni... aku sebenarnya nak citer masalah keluar, keluar plak benda2 pelik isk2... abaikan lah yang bahasa inggeris di atas tu haha... baca yang melayu sudah haha

waktu jamuan akhir sem batch sek2 kami ni,

ade ar sorg akak di suruh bagi ucapan, ukhti sebenarnya bagi peringatan hehe tazkirah,

saya ingat lagi dia cakap banyak kut, tapi akhi tadi bagi lagi banyk hehe

tapi saya nak highlight tazkirah ukhti kita ni, sebab malam tu aku tak tido pun haha

sebab esoknya exam fluid mechanic haha isk2 bukan pasal exam tapi pasal attitude aku

kata cikgu BI aku, tidak apa apa attitude, mmg sikap aku pun dari dulu, tidak suka memeningkan kepala,

tapi ukhti ni memperingatkan balik kami.

surah yusuf ayat 87:

Wahai anak-anakku! Pergilah dan intiplah khabar berita mengenai

Yusuf dan saudaranya, dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari

rahmat serta pertolongan Allah.Sesungguhnya tidak berputus asa dari

rahmat dan pertolongan Allah itu melainkan kaum yang kafir".

terus aku terasa sedikit, adui... aku give ke ngan kertas ni? hee sebab tiada hints la,

tu yg aku study giler2 sikit haha bengong tul, rupanya, tanpa hints lagi tenang hidup aku dripada ada hints.

aku study giler2 malam tu, aku teringat macam tym aku spm dlu haha,

malam macam seluruh hidup aku bergantung pada kertas tu isk2 astaghfirullah

aku study banyak mana pun, klu Allah yang Maha Pemberi tidak menghidayahkan aku kefahaman, tak berguna langsung usaha aku sehari semalam,

alhamdulillah, apa yang aku study semuanya kluar, tapi ada slack la, semua rumus aku hafal tapi ada jg yg aku tak paham, tapi yg penting aku berasa puas dengan kertas tu, berbeza dengan kertas thermodynamic hahaha, rumus aku ingat2 lupa, tapi aku tak faham cara mengaplikasikan rumus haha adeii tapi exam kali ni kire lebih baik daripada sem2 sebelum ni alhamdulillah, aku rasa macam tu lah... harap2 pointer aku naik aminnn

ayat kedua, tazkirah kedua, tazkirah dua hari sebelum aku balik,

dari surah at tahriim ayat 6

Wahai orang-orang yang beriman! Peliharalah diri kamu dan keluarga

kamu dari Neraka yang bahan-bahan bakarannya: Manusia dan batu

(berhala);...

kata akhi tu, aku tak tahu la tadabbur ayat ni betul ke tak, pada ayat ni Allah mencabar, siapa2 yang beriman, kalau benar kamu beriman maka laksanakanlah perintahNya.

marhalah 2 kedua ni, selepas diri kita, orang yang paling dekat dgn diri kita... aiks2 ni yg buat aku tensen di bilik, menulis lah aku panjang hahahaha adeiii

dah la panjang sgt dah ni, semoga bermanfaat.

ps ukhwah? mana ukhwah antum? adeiii... tak jelas fikrah kut hahaha adeiii antar balik haha

ta'aruf... tafahum... tafakul... sound familiar?

Prinsip-prinsip bloggingku

Sudah lama saya tak menulis dengan skemanya hehe, terutama sekali saya ingin meminta maaf atas apa2 yang telah saya lakukan yang menyebab semua orang rasa tidak berpuas hati dengan penulisan, tingkah laku, akhlak, pergaulan, perhubungan yang diantarakan oleh saya kepada orang perorangan dan masyarakat umum.

Atas kesedaraan yang dinikmati ini, saya telah mengorak langkah sehaluan, demi untuk mencapai cita2 murni ini. Dengan nikmat kefahaman dan kesedaran yang dimiliki, saya sesekali tidak ingin menjadikan hidup ini musnah tanpa sebarang pengorbanan.

Apakah? Okay to be direct, I would like to state the principle of my blog. Its an occordance which bestow upon me, thus implimented the rightful direction in an appropiate assurance that would gurentee all my writing are in right direction far from the astray.

Pengenalan Kawaid Fiqh.

Setelah mengikuti kelas fardhu ain pada hari rabu, saya telah diberi kefahaman sedikit sebanyak tentang, cara-cara untuk berhukum. Pada dapatan saya, kita boleh berhukum dalam perkara-perkara furuk(cabang/ranting), dalam keadaan dimana tiada orang yang lebih arif ketika itu selain kita, tiadanya sumber rujukan terbaik atau teks-teks ulama yang boleh dicapai ketika itu, ataupun keadaan yang amat2 terdesak. Tetapi setelah terdapat sesuatu yang lebih syumul dan tepat tentang sesuatu maka hendaklah kita bertaubat dengan nasuha, kalau mungkin kita sudah berbuat kesilapan besar. Hukum ni hanya pada diri sendiri, maka terserahlah jika ada orang lain hendak mengikutinya.

ps saya bukanlah orang yang mahir dalam hal fiqh ni, tapi bukankah kita semua patut tahu hal-hal asas dalam Islam? fikir2kan.


Prinsip-prinsip Kawaid Fiqh dalam berblog pada pemahaman saya

1.Setiap Perkara datang dengan Niat.
Saya akan cuba untuk mengikhlaskan diri dalam penulisan ini, sungguhpun begitu, ikhlas itu bukanlah dari mulut tapi daripada hati tiap2 yang bernyawa, maka tidaklah layak para manusia menghukum keikhlasan seseorang atas dasar perbuatan dan percakapanya, kerana ikhlas ini adalah rahsia antara hambaNya dengan Allah.

2.Tiada Kemudhratan, tidak dibalas dengan kemudharatan.
Kemudhratan ini, bermaksud sesuatu yang dapat mengancam diri ku dan orang lain, atas prinsip ini jika sesuatu itu tidak mendatangkan kemudhratan, maka seharusnya dibiarkan. Tersebut juga disitu, tidak dibalas dengan kemudharatan, jika sesuatu yang mudharat telah ditujukan kepada sesuatu pihak, maka tidak seharusnya dibalas dengan kemudharatan, hal ini menggambarkan kerosakkan kita sendiri, seharusnya cara berhikmah perlu diambil disamping menyalurkannya ke saluran-saluran yang sepatutnya

3.Yakin tidak dapat dihapus dengan syak.
Keyakinan kita terhadap sesuatu seharusnya tidak berbela bahagi, biarlah bertambah utuh apabila dicabar.

4.Adat boleh menjadi hukum.
Adat dalam blogging pada dapatan saya adalah bebas tetapi biarlah bersyariat kerana walau siapa kita di dunia ini, kita hanyalah hamba, tetap dengan watak seorang hamba.

5.Kesusahan boleh membawa kelonggaran.
Apa-apa yang membawa kesusahan, seharusnya boleh diberi kelonggaran, kerana Islam bukanlah agama yang rigid sehinggakan menyusahkan ummatnya beribadah. Akan ada terdapatnya suatu kemudahan dimana memudahkan kita beribadah. Dalam hal blogging mungkin dalam hal, informasi yang terhad, atau mungkin apa2 yang bakal menganggu yang tidak bisa dikawal dengan cepat perlukan masa dan kefaham yang terdahulu.

ps mungkin berlaku kesilapan disini, semua diskripsi tu saya yang buat atas pemahaman saya sendiri, harap ada yang boleh mengkomenkan saya insyaAllah.

Prinsip-prinsip lain daripada pemahaman pembacaan lalu

1.Islam bukanlah agama yang suka menghukum, tapi berhikmahlah.
Maafkan saya terhadap pos-pos terdahulu, ketelanjuran saya menulis sesuatu diluar fahaman saya yang jitu, akibatnya saya lebih cenderung menghukum, ini hanya akan menimbulkan ketidakpuasan dalam hati ramai pihak, seharusnya saya patutnya mengambil langkah berjaga-jaga dan berhikmah dalam penulisan, serta menghakis sikap ego dan takabbur(meninggi diri, sombong, dan yang lain berkaitan, sedangkan kebesaran atau kehebatan adalah kriteria mutlak yang menjadi milik Allah s.w.t). Ya Allah ampunilah dosa-dosa ku ni.

2.Pendekatan berlembut.
Tambahan lagi, kita sebagai umat Islam, seharusnya cuba menyelamat umat ini daripada bahaya api neraka, bukankah berhikmah itu lebih baik? Mungkin ni sajalah dapat membimbing kita yang kurang fakih akan ugama ini ke jalan yang di RidhoiNya.

3.Memahami situasi semasa.
Fahamkan dulu diri kan situasi semasa, melihat pada perubahan ini kita seharusnya lebih fasih dalam menilai keadaan, elakkan daripada terjerat dalam situasi-situasi ini. Kita mungkin akan lebih sensitif dalam hal-hal yang berkaitan dengan diri kita, maruah umat Islam, dilema umat Islam, isu-isu hak-hak umat Islam dan sejagat, tetapi AWAS, jangan dilihat pada dasarnya, tapi lihatlah dengan teliti apa yang disampaikan, jangan sampai kita terjerat dalamnya, akhirnya menjadi medium penyebar fitnah dan dakyah-dakyah golongan-golongan tertentu.

4.Niat yang baik tidak akan menghalalkan cara.
Ini prinsip umum, semua orang Islam seharusnya lebih fasih dengan hal ini, tapi mungkin juga dalam keadaan darurat ada sesuatu hal boleh melonggarkan sesuatu untuk memudahkan dan menyelamatkan kita jadi, bergembiralah.

5.Peka terhadap perasaan dan komen orang.
Kalau ada yang berkomen, bermakna ada isi hati yang hendak disampaikan, kalau tiada, makanya sukar baginya untuk menterjemah isi hatinya hehe.

OKla itu sajalah daripada saya, InsyaAllah akan ada update seterusnya jika terdapat sebarang perubahan. Mengapa perlukan perubahan? Bukankah mereka tidak sedarkan tindakkan mereka itu menyeleweng(yang dianggap baik oleh mereka)? Tapi mereka tetap juga lakukan, pada dapatan mereka, merekalah yang lebih hak. Sesekali tidak, kerana kedegilan mereka itulah, mereka sesekali tidak dalam landasan yang benar sesudah dirinya ditegur dan diperbetulkan. Maka itulah prinsip yang keenam.

Oleh itu berubahlah sahabat-sahabatku :), sesungguhnya yang berhak itu hanyalah pada Allah.

ps siap juga pos aku untuk ari ni, semoga diberkati Allah dan dapat dijadikan barakah yang berkekalan. Amin.

Hati Ku perlu Ketenangan

As of today, life continues... Weeee

Yup, I'm thinking about doing something odds today. I had enough of sleeping, and sleeping and sleeping, plus I had good foods and luxurious time for enjoyment. Thinking deep, I couldn't wonder how things are going to be better or rather normal. My life is just like a mistake, but no more, I must change.

I was watching this anime, I know its kinda a bit to unorthodox and unsaint, but the message it serves are well adapted in our life. The thing is I only watch anime and less reading, thus I keep on getting knowledge from anime instead of book. Anime is kinda cool they got image and audio sensation, though I'm reading the substitle all the time, the true is that the medium is on set of great educational evolutionary method of delivery idea and thoughts.

Quite a few changes occur during my "self reluctant education" period at UMP, sigh, it was hard. I had difficult time catching up things. But thing get a little bit energetic for some reason, I know its hard. The fact that I did learn alot here. Maybe for some reason I begin to understand people, why we get selfish and arrogant. Some more living is not the best thing in life without learning to live. Moreover I found my self helpless and inneed for desperate helps but things always astray well through times and space.

One thing for certain that I can understand the most, about people around us, we are not that much of different, you are a doctor, a teacher, a lecturer, a technician, a comedian, you name it. Whats differ is that our "ATTITUDE". Its tough one, I know this kind of thing back from secondary school, where mdm. Tan's said "tidak apa-apa attitude"(it mean like "so what", if its direct translation it be all like funniest (no what-what attitude?). This kind of attitude that differentiate all of us, atleast thats what I think.

A little bit of things I did today, I had try using google chrome, and I am using it now, theres few failure but yet its still simple and user friendly, that is if you think theres nothing for you would do otherthan surfing the net. Weird, before they had it, they has had promoted mozilla firefox, now they had their own. Oh ya, When did Bill Gates step down? Woah I must be ignorant for not reading or listening to news. p/s I'm busy hehe.

Abit from the news, A mumbai incident, no, Its a massacre. From my own observation, this massacre would provoke hatred and anger toward the muslim. What afraid me more, its not that the Indian muslim would be effected by this although that the Indian muslim had suffered more than ever. Muslim all over the world are been thrown into image of disgrase and terrorism. But if we look even deeper, InsyaAllah someday, we would come into resolution we theres no other option, that time is nearer, more and more terrorism occur, the more closer we to the world's true color. Whatever it is, its just something that I feel might happen or maybe our unseen enemies are doing their own homeworks.

Hati Ku perlu Ketenangan :)

Happy?

I did some solat just now, I mean its a dawn prayer for muslim, and I should be praying about two rakaats(two times standing still). Yeah right, a daily routine for a muslim, well a muslim not that kinda of so-called muslim.

Guess what, Well I like problems, I prays about 6 rakaats, because my heart is not satisfied with my first prayer, then I did second and still I thinking something was missing, and I did the third one, yet something is missing, my heart tremble with dissatifaction.

Oh well, I did my best. Well that at least what I think the best.

Great new day again. I would like to tell about the world, accurately my world.

Yesterday, I recieved a messages from a friend. Yup just a friend. The message goes like this, "...her wife would be happy if shes married him...", I translated that from malay to english so something might be missing in translation. The thing is when read her message, I miss out that point, I then reply her message and so on.

This morning, I read up my message again, for some particular reason, maybe because of bored and so forth. Something come pop up to my mind, I guess if shes said that, maybe her life would be miserable if shes had married me.

Just think about it, I'm a not so good person, always does stupid works, thinking about easy-going life an so on. Suddenly theres just some one hoping that I can give some thing good that would probably make their life better, they surely will suffered like me instead of being happy.

Thinking even more depth, do I really deserved some happiness? Like the other? am I a happy person? This is the point where my life determine, its not like I questioning what had been given to me, the thing that I want to stressed out here is the present me, its the thing that occur to my life.

I guess I don't really care about anything, Life is cool, life is good, the thing is we make our life better. Arent that everyone wishes for something for their future?

Hunger

Its been about 4 days the cafeteria closed.

Its been 4 days I had earned food from other.
How shameless I am.

Thinking back, why didnt the university think about this? Well I guess you are too old so it up to you to handle it. I guess I just lazy to change my life.

Can I hate somebody for this? no right. I'm hungry, I need food.

On one second, why did we always keep on relied on other?(oops is that proper spell? nvm)
This is what happen when we keep on relying on other, they died and you will also perished with them. They can do anything at you, abuse you, make you suffer and all those evil stuffs.

But then, thinking possitively, this is the real world, someday somehow we might face this situation. When? easily when that some American dude come and conquer your nation or any other nation just like that guy in Israel.

Nevertheless, I felt it, the poor. I think if the poor acctually taste like this every days, surely they couldnt stand. I never taste something like this in ramadhan, Allah give me hidayah, He shown it to me, its different, its totally different than fasting.

When we fast its one obedient to Allah, but is it really that bad? No. Fasting is acctually easy and can be done, unless if you had a week Iman(aka Faith to Allah) and physically and mentally unfit. But do our fasting really accepted by Allah, no and not really, only Allah knows better who are among His slaves are more obedient.

So speaking about this, what does a money good for when you cant use it?
Money is just a tool, But Allah give us everything.