Its been about 4 days the cafeteria closed.
Its been 4 days I had earned food from other.
How shameless I am.
Thinking back, why didnt the university think about this? Well I guess you are too old so it up to you to handle it. I guess I just lazy to change my life.
Can I hate somebody for this? no right. I'm hungry, I need food.
On one second, why did we always keep on relied on other?(oops is that proper spell? nvm)
This is what happen when we keep on relying on other, they died and you will also perished with them. They can do anything at you, abuse you, make you suffer and all those evil stuffs.
But then, thinking possitively, this is the real world, someday somehow we might face this situation. When? easily when that some American dude come and conquer your nation or any other nation just like that guy in Israel.
Nevertheless, I felt it, the poor. I think if the poor acctually taste like this every days, surely they couldnt stand. I never taste something like this in ramadhan, Allah give me hidayah, He shown it to me, its different, its totally different than fasting.
When we fast its one obedient to Allah, but is it really that bad? No. Fasting is acctually easy and can be done, unless if you had a week Iman(aka Faith to Allah) and physically and mentally unfit. But do our fasting really accepted by Allah, no and not really, only Allah knows better who are among His slaves are more obedient.
So speaking about this, what does a money good for when you cant use it?
Money is just a tool, But Allah give us everything.
Tambahan
I guess simply write in whater form is not my style at ALL.
Okay I guess, I had deleted 2 blogs just now. Its a failure.
Yeah I know I'm a failure ;p.
So WHAT? lol.
Teringat plak idup ini...
rasanya aku telah gagal.
mungkin aku mewarisi kegagalan dalam diri.
dulu kini dan selamanya.
bukanku berdoa untuk gagal,
inilah yang aku rasa selama ini.
But the whenever failure come to me,
Well I JUST hope for the best.
Its was nothing though, after it's life, right?
DEFINITELY nothing is easy.
Thats totally true, yet I believe its not.
A day of celebration, I taste defeat a day before, I'm a failure.
A day of celebration, I taste the suffering of minor, the are major in the world.
Now I know, life isnt easy.
Why not given up?
Its easy to say, but get it done is hard, right?
LOL philisophical talk wont change the world.
INVAIN in life, nah its just my life.
Why? I failed the test!
I wonder how I would walks my life,
I just cant see a clear path.
Which path should I take?
I had chosen one, but still, I failed.
What are the other options?
Ya Allah jika hidupku ini baik untukku, panjangkanlah umurku,
Ya Allah jika matiku ini baik untukku, matikanlah aku.
Ya Allah matikanlah aku dalam iman, akhirkannya dengan Husnul Khatimah.
bila ku terpikir2
dimana ku berdiri tika ini..
tika itu pulak bagaimana..
adakah idup ku ini diredhai..
sedey bila terkenangkan idup ini..
walaupun ati ni teguh bersabar..
tapi sampai saatnya...
memang payah ku menahan..
rindu rasanya..
bilalah diri ku ini dipanggil pulang..
ke kampung halaman kelak..
namun..
adakah diriku ni cukup bersedia..
khuatir memanjang..
merasakan diriku kelak tak diterima..
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